which one is me?
the happy one?
or the sad me?
i dont even recognize myself in the mirror.
hiding behind the laughter.
hiding behind the tears.
it’s my life as a fake.
it’s a fake life i’m living.
which one is me?
the happy one?
or the sad me?
i dont even recognize myself in the mirror.
hiding behind the laughter.
hiding behind the tears.
it’s my life as a fake.
it’s a fake life i’m living.
I guess I have one too…
Hi Mom… I’m doing good (answering mom’s called when I was hospitalized).
Faking smile to co-workers and bosses when I just had a quarell with my dad.
Cheering friends when my heart is aching
Hey…. It’s not fake life that you’re living. It’s just two contrary situations that you’re having at the same time. It happens to people.
Emm… maybe you have same thought as me..
don’t know what to do
don’t know where to go
got no one to share my hapiness
don’t wanna grow old alone
oops
Petronero is saying “this is the time when you realize that there’s no use moving on…”
please this is a scary think to say, you make one belief you have given up on live? Things like that give me the chills, please stop this path Petro!
Petrona is asking “which one is me?”
i would like you to be strong. that is what i was grateful to have gotten to know of you Winda. You are a smart, strong, and also you have the right mind to think for you self. You know what is good for you and behind thick walls, got a carring heart .
Petrona asks “the happy one?”
in the moment you might think unhappy thoughts but i know you can be very happy if you let you self too be that way.
Petrona “or the sad me?”
you can only be as sad as you let you too be, It is all a question of you mind.
Petrona says “i dont even recognize myself in the mirror.”
I say and if I can say this, you should too !” I dont look much in the mirror , i cant or dont want to make my self different, I like my self! I am to other ppl the way i feel right now! ( i can make my self feel any way i want, any time! I HAVE THE POWER TO THINK OF MY SELF THE WAY I FEEL !!! that is how i like to show my self!!! .(happy , sexy ,dangerous, innocent,vulnerable, ……………., ……….., ……., ….., …, .., .,
Petrona says “hiding behind the laughter.”
feel only insecure if a group do this in a language I dont understand, Dont forget nobody can harm you integrity!
Now i like you to ask me this
are you hiding behind the tears?
No, every tear i can drop makes me feel alive. I had to learn how to be sad and wen ever my eyes ever got wet of sadness i am happy that i can feel the moment.
You are asking if you live a fake life ? “it’s my life as a fake.” ?
Trust me there is no human being on this world that is not fake. WHY ? Us as humans are denying to be animals! We think too be better, smarter, have logic, or common sense. But I think that intelligence is survival what translates to society we adapt like monkeys. So government and church forces us in to a ABNORMAL belief, belief as in GREEDY Animals and humans ….. (same thing)…. greedy!… So karma translates in to selfish + pretend to help some one else in making my self to feel better, richer ( understand???)… just by saying this it makes me a fake here too ? ) (“but a honest lier “)
(((((( with all i have written here all i want to do is follow evolution, make you still like me , get attention, inspirer curiosity, get also attention.))))) …… honest lier….
It is not a lie if you EXPLAIN why you too try to be likable too. Were likable can translate to be also in to something that you could dislike. What makes that person not to dislike you nevertheless….( i had to read over this like 10 times to understand it my self by the way )
You saying “it’s a fake life i’m living.”
I say :
“we want to live without lies, so we lie to our self to think to live with out lies!”
I think you understand thees last words, it is the only reason to make us unhappy
But then again I can be happy about harsh honesty
help me wright a book about my feelings rather then dissing all this what i have written.
I know it dont makes sense unless you can enter my mind:)
xoox